年轻的时候,
女人买的往往是最华丽, 最能垫高自己高度的鞋,
即使难穿也没关系,
因你觉得自己可以忍受,
但有一天,
忍耐到拇指外翻, 脚起水泡,
她才发现鞋子的重要性不过是
" 陪你走路, 不是要站在原地, "

你不需要任何鞋来增加你的高度,
因为, 态度决定高度..
你本来就是这个样子了..


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我只能说,
正当大家议论纷纷,
十分不解..
为什么,
你可以为了在份数榜上拥有更高的席位,屏了老命去读书,
你可以为了增加自己的高度而和一人一起,
你可以为了要看不起身边的人而用十分不屑的语气,
你可以为了突现自己的幸运而贬低'华语派'的人..

虽然如此, 庆幸的, 地球不因你而转..
我只能说, 人各有志..
你的志想, 不外是, 踩着别人向上攀..

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i found this at chicken soup, and i copy it down..

it sounds interesting, and how far da truth is, i depends on how you think..

i am gotta sit for my trial in not more than 24 hours..

didnt really prepare well..

this hoiday is so much into my c901..

i love da camera..

and i addicted to da games..

play once and once again..

and on9 to search for things and make it look nice..

i adore da phone colour..

stress is getting better..

keep telling myself, take it easy and do my best..

jia you jia you!

爱上了当宅女
喜欢留在家,
喜欢我的房间,
爱我的床,
爱我的电话,
爱追看连续剧,
爱和我爸妈聊天,
爱跟我弟弟斗嘴,

爱,一个人呆着..
爱,沉醉在自己的世界...

可是,
就是不怎么爱我的书本..
下星期二就预考了,
记不完的程式,
读不完的课本,
做不完的练习,
不喜欢考试,
不喜欢考试压力带来的失眠,
不喜欢头脑硬梆梆,实实的感觉,
讨厌上学,
讨厌那不懂扮懂的老师,
讨厌你争我斗的气氛,
讨厌学校无聊的政策...

我要呆在家,
我要做我爱做的事,
我要做我...

人,不过如此..

it called a day

yeah yeah..i am home now..
reach home earlier today..
cuz i skipped maths tt..haha..
reason, i dont feel like going..
but actually i'd decided to go untill i saw da small notes on my car wiper..
which inturn change my decision..
it is from my long-never-contact buddy and softball teammate-ms chew yan-yu..
initially i phoned them and ask them to wait for me till after my class,
but at last i decided to skip..really feel reluctant to go..
however. sadly. i didnt get to meet her..
she gotta go home since her mum is frus on her often outing practice lately..
anyway, i spend a good time with huishi and gang at kopitiam..
chat from girlboy relationship, college life, form six life, ppl's boyfriend, gals gossips......
she says, when you study outside, you will get mentally mature and know everything is not easy..
i am still studying at my home town and staying with my family, but i can understand what does she mean..
mayb not totally understand but at least i know it will be indeed tough..
i dont want da time when i have to worry my daily meal, when i need to spend within budget every month, when there is noone around during my sick time, when i feel so empty before i sleep..
anyway, i think after stpm, it is time to learn up how to live on my own..

我不急着长大，只想学着长大..



these stuff, fill up my days last two week, and predictable, da following months..

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i read this in newspaper last few days..meaningful text..it just hit my point..my new policy, live happier in life..

skip a tuition class but gain a nice chat, i think, it is totally OKAY..

at least, i did something to make myself happy..

i didnt see da people i dont want to, i didnt feel da stressful atmosphere, i didnt stuck in da stuffy place for 2 hours..

haha..today, i am happy!

and this, gear me forward..one big stack of physics notes (ps:36 chapters to be tested) plus school notes and reference book..

i need to get way to motivation, i need energy~

end with this, nice decoration of cupcakes..

thinking to skip school again tomorrow..see ya..=)

sharing

since SHARNG IS CARING


so let's update a bit on my happenings recently..

• needless to say, everyone is in exam MODE, trial is just 20 more days..sadly, i got no study mood
• secondly, a disappointing case, i didnt get my ideal results in muet..i feel down because i think i had wasted my parents' tuition fees, i failed to achieve target set by miss mindy, she is a really nice tutor i had meet, perhaps da nicest one..anyhow, i didnt retake and i had been using very few English lately, which shown by my cacated language used now..
• instead, my days filled by tonnes of endless equations, formulae, numbers, compound names............nightmare..
• my class did some recording for down memory lane and graduation song..it is quite fun..but i think some of them were suffering from da responsibilities bear..final results is not important to us, frankly..we just treasure da moments..
• i attended farewell parties and annual dinners for 3 consecutive saturdays..waited so long da this day to pass thing to da new committees but now, i feel tak berat hati lar..time passes in a blink of eye..
• i watched transformer with my family..dad and mum got very bored and nearly fell asleep..they just cant understand..it is within expectation ler..i too get hard to follow and go into da story line..ok, personally i don't like robot..
• da most precious thing i gain this while is, i start to treasure da time spend with my family..previously i used to take this as a nature and i get it for no reasons..but now, i comprhend that it is a treasure to me and i must appreciate and love them for da most i can..
• dad bought me a new phone..it is a sudden decision and he choosed da phone for me..sometimes, i think he really pampering us too much, and makes me love him more..
• i get sick for few times..last two week, my class is having flu outbreak..hehe..non-stop sneezing, coughing..virus everywhere=)

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okay..
looking back my blog,
it looks ntg but depressing and blue..
i think, i should made a change, abruptly..

erm..had been in this new life for more than one year..
i changed, mentally..
i get to be very reluctant to express or share my feeling..
i find hard to communicate with ppl sometimes..
i always feel emotional and throw tantrum easily..
i can look perfectly good at this moment and change to hatred face in da next..
i get unsatisfy with others very often..
i overly care others' opinion on me..

regardless anything, i don't like myself to act so irrational..
i hate myself to be mentally weak..
l loss confidence, loss da faith in myself, loss da ability to be nice to ppl..
although, it had been a countless times i told myself that i want to change,
i always fail..

without any acknowledgement, i cannot blame all this to others or da surroundings..
because it is very obviously that in every situation,
it is all depend on how you take it and gain experience..

with da time left in my last high school life, i really sincerely hope that i can gain something useful..
it is neither results nor position..
but is da lessons gained which concerned..

time to put a huge ending to my current though..
i want to make it this time..

days have been so blue..
which i totally dislike..-_-